I would like $3 worth of God please

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Elie Wiesel survived Auschwitz, barely. His faith in God was also shaken as the lives of those around him suffered and perished. Despite this, Wiesel felt that a wounded faith is stronger. He said, “My tradition teaches that no heart is as whole as a broken heart..”1Faith can find solidification from a wound, but make no mistake, a wounded faith is dangerous. Especially a faith that is asking hard questions and the answers are not satisfying or even visible. Why cancer, why Alzheimer’s, why divorce, why child suffering, why suicide, why Covid-19? 

So many youth today leave the church because questions are not answered. For many, their first doubts begin in their teens and continue well into their 20’s. According to the 2018 Barna Trends, a leading research organization focused on the crossing of faith and culture; nearly 70% of Christians have admitted to experiencing doubt, and just over 25% continue having doubts. Of those who have experienced doubt:

  • 30% stopped reading their bible
  • 46% stopped attending church
  • 24% stopped talking about their faith2

I see three categories of those that have questions about their faith. First, for some, these questions are thrust upon them because of the shocking and unexpected turn of events. After the initial trauma, the wrestling begins and a long journey of agony and attempts at understanding what took place. Second, others consider these questions because they are truth seekers. Something within them, (which was my experience from many years ago), inspires them to put on their hiking shoes, backpack, explorer hat, and they begin to search for accurate answers to difficult questions. Finally, some ask those questions, not for truth, but the endorsement of their particular worldview. They desire approval and justification by acquitting and absolving themselves of their lifestyle. They are only satisfied with answers that fit their specific worldview and allow them to continue to live the way they want to live. 

Asking the hard questions may come from a place of agony, accuracy, or approval, but many never really begin to ask any questions. Their posture toward God is skin deep; mine certainly was for many years. They would rather buy a Hallmark card then make one. Purchase the shine, but never lift the hood. Wilbur Rees wrote concerning this kind of faith, “I would like to buy $3.00 worth of God please. Not enough to explode my soul or disturb my sleep, but just enough to equal a cup of warm milk or a snooze in the sunshine. I want ecstasy, not transformation; I want the warmth of the womb, not a new birth. I want a pound of the Eternal in a paper sack. I would like to buy $3.00 worth of God, please”.3

Vincent Donovan shared in his book ‘Christianity Rediscovered’ about his experience in Africa. The Masai tribe in Africa has two words for ‘faiths’. One is a simple agreement with something and lacks any emotion, passion, or desire. It was likened to a white man hunter who pulls the trigger with no thought beyond the trophy to hang in his living room. A Masai elder described the other word for faith as something much more private or devoted. Much like an animal that hunts for its prey. Picture a mountain lion or Bobcat that stalk their prey. Sometimes hours of waiting with perfect stillness despite the nearness of the victim and almost overpowering scent fill the hunter-animal with lust for the kill. When the moment is right, it leaps on the unsuspecting animal and makes the prey part of itself.4

How many of us make our faith part of who we are? I have heard the question asked, if you were brought to trial, would there be enough evidence to convict you of being a Christian? Could others, friends, co-workers, family members testify that you have spoken of being a Christian, or seen ‘Christ-like’ behavior? Does your faith go beyond the cross hanging from your neck, the bible in your living room, the proverb poster framed on your wall? 

In the last couple of weeks, Luke 10:27 has been pressed upon my heart. “Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind; and, Love your neighbor as yourself.” Jesus then told him if he did this he will live. In that conversation with the expert on the law, Jesus never mentioned the word faith, but make no mistake; it is embedded in verse 27. Hebrews 11:6 says without faith it is impossible to please Him. Ephesians 2:8-9 says we have been saved by grace through faith. 1Timothy 6:12 says to fight the good fight of faith to take hold of eternal life. 

Michael Horton, in his book Core Christianity, addresses those who are trying to live out their faith. “You may not always ‘feel his pleasure’ in your calling…You don’t just choose one calling. You choose many over a lifetime…Just be who God has called you to be right where you are, with the people he has called you to serve. You will make a difference, but life is not about making a difference. It is about doing what God has made you to do so that you can be a conduit of his love and service to others.”5

A. W. Tozer said, “A scared world needs a fearless church.”6

  1. Done, Dominic. “The Luchador.” When Faith Fails: Finding God in the Shadow of Doubt. By Dominic Done. Nashville, TN: Nelson, 2019. 154-55. Print. []
  2. Stone, Roxanne, and Alyce Youngblood. “Trending in Faith.” Barna Trends 2018: What’s New and What’s next at the Intersection of Faith and Culture, Baker Books, 2017, pp. 132 []
  3. Swindoll, Charles. The Inspirational Writings. New York: BBS Publishing Corporation, 1994, pg. 21, Print. []
  4. Donovan, Vincent J. Christianity Rediscovered. Maryknoll: Orbis Books, 1978, Print. []
  5. Horton, Michael. “In The Meantime: Callings” Core Christianity. Zondervan. 2016 pg. 167 []
  6. Tozer, A. W. This World: Playground or Battleground? Chicago, Moody Publishers, 1989, Kindle edition, loc 103-118 []


Reading Time: 6 minutesDoubt. If Christian is honest, that is something we all have had in our Christian walk. Despite my readings in the past couple years on apologetics, which does not mean apologizing for our faith, but defending our faith, doubt still creeps in.

William Lane Craig shares a story in his book, Hard Questions, Real Answers about a student who came up to him after class one day and said, “How come everything you say confirms what my pastor taught?” Somewhat taken aback by this comment Dr. Craig replied, “Why shouldn’t it?” The questioning student replied, “Well, all the other professors in my department challenge my faith.” Craig replied, “Look, I don’t want to challenge your faith; I want to challenge your thinking. But I want to build up your faith.” 1

That is a significant insight into a teacher’s responsibility that I have been guilty of over looking at times. Having taught Jr. High for many years, I have enjoyed numerous meaningful conversations with students about a wide variety of topics. From politics to puberty, I have had opportunities to share my thoughts and beliefs with my students, which often were counter to what the world was teaching them.

As a young Christian, I can remember hearing that doubt is a good thing, it will strengthen your faith. Made sense to me at the time, but I have come to realize that doubt is not a good thing and it is something we need to struggle against.  James 1:6 says, “But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind.”

Certainly Thomas had doubts and Jesus told him to stop doubting. John 20:27, “Then He said to Thomas, ‘Put your finger here; see my hands. Reach out your hand and put it into my side. Stop doubting and believe.’” When believers have doubts they need to share them with others and seek answers, this goes double for our youth in public schools or college who are engaged daily with the real world and its counter culture that undermines everything they are taught to believe in church. Those who instruct our youth need to be especially vigilant when occupied with young believers. Teachers need to be careful about raising questions in the form of instruction, but to always present solutions that will employ their minds, and strengthen their faith.

How does someone build their faith? If you define faith as Peter Boghossian, does it is not possible. He defines faith as belief without evidence. Or specifically as, “Pretending to know things you don’t know.” 2

Some Christians view faith as what you have when you don’t have evidence. You just ‘choose’ to believe even if you don’t have reasons, but faith is built by evidence, not the lack of it. As you learn more about the historicity, (historical evidence), of Christ and how testimony outside the Gospels add evidence to the person of Christ, your knowledge grows along with your faith. As archeology supports the historical record of scripture your knowledge increases along with your faith. John Lennox put it this way, “Indeed, faith is a response to evidence, not a rejoicing in the absence of evidence.” 3

Just the other day my wife and I viewed a DVD Film by John Christy titled, “My Week in Atheism”. I plan on watching it again and taking notes because many of the topics in the film raised questions that Christians might struggle with. The film is about two friends, one an atheist activist, (David Smalley), and the other a Christian apologist, (John Christy). Despite their opposite world views, the two of them have maintained a close friendship.

The movie explores both world views and attempts, (successfully I believe), to give the viewer a greater understanding of both the Christian and the atheist world views. Even more importantly, why they believe what they believe, and why their world views spill over into politics and create such tension between many atheists and Christians. This film is not about politics, but about moving beyond the rhetoric both sides often offer.

During one session, David asked the question about how an all powerful and loving God would allow a three year old girl to suffer a lengthy illness and then die of cancer. He asked this question because he knew a three year old girl who that actually happened to. In our own church, we have had families suffer such losses, or had children born with severe disabilities. In recent years, at least two families have lost both parents in the prime of their life. Parents who, on all accounts, were living for the Lord and faithful to Christ. For me personally, with my youngest daughter dealing with scoliosis and possibly facing surgery, asking God why and desiring an answer has now become personal.

The suffering we experience in this world is one of the greatest stumbling blocks to the Christian World view. Everyone can agree, if God was all knowing, then he would be aware of the suffering in our world. If God were all powerful, then he would be able to stop the suffering and evil that takes place in our world. If God was all loving, then he would want to do something about the evil he knows about, and is able to stop. Yet, evil and suffering exists in our world, so some conclude an all knowing, all powerful, and all loving God cannot exist. Many use this argument to claim, the God of the Bible does not exist. Philosophers and apologists know this as the ‘problem of evil’.

When addressing the problem of evil, it is important to recognize two difficulties. First is the emotional problem of evil, and the second is the intellectual problem of evil.

When someone has experienced a great loss, or is suffering in some way that causes them emotional and even physical stress, addressing the problem of evil from philosophical or intellectual direction often does more harm than good. It is in our nature, (granted some more than others), to physically console or embrace those who suffer. Many times words are not even exchanged, but just a physical closeness and willingness to share in the suffering, express empathy, is all that one can offer, and often, that is all that the one suffering would desire.

At a time of great loss or suffering, offering trite comments like, “God understands”, or “His ways are mysterious”, or “It is part of his plan we may never understand” do little or nothing to alleviate the pain, even when the person offering such condolences is deeply sincere. They are mistakenly offering an intellectual solution when none is asked for. The time to address the intellectual problem of evil is never when the loss is still causing emotional turmoil.

Often the person who has suffered the loss will, on their own time, bring up the problem of evil and share questions, doubts, frustration, and anger at God, with their close friends or family. It is at that time, friends can discuss the moral dilemma and possibility come to some kind of answer.

After hearing of the death of his wife, C.S. Lewis wrote, “The more we believe that God hurts only to heal, the less we can believe that there is any use in begging for tenderness. A cruel man might be bribed – might grow tired of his vile sport – might have a temporary fit of mercy, as an alcoholic have fits of sobriety. But suppose that what you are up against is a surgeon whose intentions are wholly good. The kinder and more conscientious he is, the more inexorably he will go on cutting. If he yielded to your entreaties, if he stopped before that operation was complete, all the pain up to that point would have been useless.” 4

If the aim of someone is to show that God and evil in the world cannot exist together, then the objector of God has to show that God does not have any moral reasons for permitting the evil we experience. Dinesh D’Souza shared this, “Carl Sagan helpfully suggests that in order to dispel all doubts about His existence, ‘God could have engraved the Ten Commandments on the moon.’ Pascal supplies a plausible reason for that he calls the hiddenness of God. Perhaps, he writes, God wants to hide Himself from those who have no desire to encounter Him while revealing Himself to those whose hearts are open to Him. If God were to declare Himself beyond our ability to reject Him, then He would be forcing Himself on us.” 5


  1. Craig, William L. Hard Questions Real Answers. Wheaton: Crossway, 2003. Print
  2. Boghossian, Peter. A Manual For Creating Atheists. Durham: Pitchstone Publishing, 2013. Print
  3. Lennox, John. God’s Undertaker. Oxford: Lion Books, 2009. Print
  4. Craig, William L. Hard Questions Real Answers. Wheaton: Crossway, 2003. Print
  5. D’Souza, Dinesh. What’s So Great About Christianity. Carol Stream: Tyndale House, 2007. Print

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